"It was so
nice of Jesus to let Peter walk on the water." That’s what Titus
told me, when he was 2 years old. Still makes me giggle, picturing his
little blonde head and the little boy voice speaking the words. True
words, they are, though. It was so nice of Jesus. So nice of Him to
let us do so many things, and learn, and grow, and live, and breathe, and keep
on needing Him, and keep on running to Him. So true, and Titus’s little
heart was beginning to notice His goodness, and it was so kind of our Savior to
earn us the standing of brothers and sisters, fellow heirs, heirs together of
the grace of God, and all that He is and owns and offers, so that little
toddlers can begin to grow up in Him, and learn of Him, and hear His gospel of
grace through faith plus nothing else, because nothing else was good enough to
erase my sin except His own lifeblood.
True words,
spoken by one who didn’t yet understand them, but does now, and yesterday, when
I asked him what he wanted to thank God for, said, “Mom, I’m thankful that God
saved those 5000 people when Peter preached that message . . .” Peter
again. Titus again. Growth. Truth. The Gospel, at work,
in my family, in my son, in me, as it was in Peter, as it was when he spoke
truth to thousands, and thousands believed, because God blessed Peter’s words
and blessed his faith and grew his tiny faith into a great big faith. Because
the object of the faith didn’t change, and as he fixed his heart on that One,
the faith came into clearer focus and grew strong and mature, unbudging,
unrelenting, bold, and fearless, no matter the waves, no matter the crowds, no
matter the persecution, even in the face of death, he didn’t cry out “I’m
sinking!” because Jesus had taken that tiny measure of faith given, and grown
it into something rock solid. Upon this rock I will build my church, He
said.
It was so nice
of Jesus to let Peter grow into his big strong grown-up faith, and to let us
learn from his example, and to teach us obedience by His own unquestioning
obedience to the Father.
Tiny gifts.
Tiny, unbreakable, ever-growing gifts. Like a tree, planted by the
river of water, bringing forth fruit in its season. In its season.
From walking on water, gasping out in fear, to preaching to multitudes, to his
own execution. He brought forth fruit in its season, and it started with
a tiny faith gift.
There are some
big things going in all of our lives, if we're honest. Some
uncomfortable. Some downright terrifying. And, though it's cliche,
when it rains, it pours. Sometimes there are so many questions, so much
to process all at once.
And yet, this
is the day you gave, and we will rejoice in it.
The boys were pretending to be
Pharaoh this evening. Such a funny game that they invented. Titus had made some
kind of floppy, Lego-ish looking contraption and decided that it was a head
covering. He declared, "I'm Pharaoh," and his brothers began to
serve him strawberries and fan him with giant pillows, and every time they
would stop he would use his very best stern voice and shout, "Do you want
your daily payment?" and they would hurriedly resume their jobs with great
displays of fear and reverence, stifling uproarious giggles as they went.
When we prayed together this
evening, and brought our questions before the throne of God Himself, I
thought of Joseph, who served in Pharaoh's house. Joseph, who had done
nothing wrong, yet had been mistreated, and forgotten. There are some
Joseph times in the believer's life, aren't there? Yet Joseph remained
faithful. So did Job. Neither of them fought against their
circumstances, but yielded fully to the Father.
And so, as we prayed, and as I
reread Genesis 39-41, I ran for Your shelter once again. My rock, and my
defense. My strong tower.
Father, we will praise you. In everything give thanks, for this is the will of God in Christ
Jesus concerning you. For now, there is still some perceivable order remaining in the chaos. But, even without it, we could still praise you. The political realm is nuts right now, and our nation is
riddled with tragedy and strife, yet we praise You. Our lives our messy; we continue to praise You.
We are fearfully and wonderfully
made, and we praise you. Your thoughts toward us are more in number than the sand, so
great is the sum of them! My present challenges, undesirable and even offensive as I find
them, to You, may be something of great beauty, a symbol of what you are about
to accomplish in our lives.
And so I bow my head, and dry my
tears, and thank you for these challenges, and for creating me and my husband,
and for making us so different from each other, so that we can work together to grow in unity
and in our love for You and in our communication and in our decision making and
in our planning and in our prioritizing, that above all You might be praised.
We love you. Where you lead we
will follow, no matter what lies ahead. Because You've promised to
complete the work in us that you started. Because you keep our eyes above
the waves when our faith is big, but also, and especially, when it is ever so small. For even the trial of our faith is precious to You.
Right now, I may be the
walking-on-the-water, crying-out-lest-I-sink Peter, but one day, I'll be the
boldly-proclaiming-the-gospel-to-the-multitudes version. One day.
I'll be complete in Him. For now, I'll keep studying His living,
breathing, motive-discerning, thought-reading, life changing Word that I may be
complete, lacking in nothing.
Bless the Lord,
oh my soul. Worship His holy name!
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